Billiette Calling! You Can’t Ever Drink Again


You Can’t Ever Drink Again

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The greatest words that were ever said to me were, “You can’t ever drink again”, for I was set free – free from bondage. However, some alcoholics feel that the words of “doom” were spoken. “How in the world am I ever going to live.” “I’ll never have any fun without ever having another drink.”

Go ahead, have your drink; but while you are having “your fun”, you may ram into a car and kill an innocent family. You can’t live without a drink? That family didn’t live because of “your drink”.

Go ahead, have your drink: but while you are having “your fun”, what’s happening to your own family? Is their world becoming a world of “without”? Without food, clothes, security, and love. Have fun. You are destroying your family, for their world is becoming a world full of fear, hate, and anxiety.

You can’t live without another drink? Go ahead and have “your fun”. But what about your job, your employer, and employees who depend upon you? Remember, they don’t owe you a living.

What about society? Should they take care of you like a little child for the rest of your life?

What about God? How long will you go on defeating His purpose for your life? If you say God is dead – then you are saying you are dead, for there can be no “real living’ without God!

“You Can’t Live Without a Drink?” So, go full speed ahead and have “your fun”; for soon “the drink” will live without you!

Drink, drunk, destroy, DEATH. Billiette S.

Remember – “Nothing is so bad; a drink won’t make it worse”.

Receiving Billiette’s Call! You Can’t Ever Drink Again

   These words “you can’t ever drink again” are being read as my recent thoughts since my last drink six months ago has been about having a beer. It seems Billiette really struggled with drying herself out and I remember some of those battles. I experience the “call of beer” but I have learned to acknowledge it and so far, I have been able to dismiss it. It passes on not calling again for days at a time. It is a slow process extinguishing this acquired need – it really is “one day at a time”. The key idea is using one’s imagination, imagine after having a drink what you are going to feel like the next morning, yes painful headache, plugged nose, but more importantly, you have let yourself down, you have to begin all over again. This is very depressing!

   Go ahead, have your drink, Go ahead have your drink. Billiette begins the next two paragraphs with go ahead, get yourself shit-faced, kill a family on the road, deny them life, while at the same time destroying your family’s life – they live in fear, hate, and anxiety. Just for a moment pause… see if you can feel the experiences of fear, hate, anxiety. Really, try and put yourself in your spouse, or your child’s place. This is the essence of empathy, a key to overcoming alcoholic behavior – our challenge is to increase empathic understanding. Mom then extends this devastating destruction and pain to our job, our boss, our fellow employees – we may severely be endangering many lives and at the same time expecting them – society to take care of us.

   The last issue Billiette addresses is the death of God. Mom is a Christian and with her family attended Fargo First Methodist Church every Sunday – she raised her sons to believe in the Christian God. I often discussed our beliefs with Mom and the “death of God” idea originally suggested by Hegel and quoted by Nietzsche. However, Nietzsche’s use of the “phrase to explain his idea that the Enlightenment had only eliminated the possibility of the existence of God” (Wikipedia).  Nietzsche’s complete statement is: God is dead. God remains dead. And we have killed him. How shall we comfort ourselves, the murderers of all murderers? What was holiest and mightiest of all that the world has yet owned has bled to death under our knives: who will wipe this blood off us? What water is there for us to clean ourselves? What festivals of atonement, what sacred games shall we have to invent? Is not the greatness of this deed too great for us? Must we ourselves not become gods simply to appear worthy of it? (Wikipedia) The challenge Nietzsche leaves us with is, “Must we ourselves not become gods to appear worthy of it?” This is The Enlightenment and if one drinks alcohol “the drink will live without you!” We will eventually have to deal with wine being the blood of Christ. Remembering – “Nothing is so bad, a drink won’t make it worse”. Steven S.

Happy 100th Birthday Mom – November 19, 1921.

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Transformation of Libido

The word libido is still a ghost in this title. If you ask yourself, Transformation of what? the answer is the transformation of libido. Jung left the word libido out of his re-publishing his essay. This is an important matter in understanding the book because one of its central issues is the concept of libido. It was on this issue that Freud and Jung had major disagreements, namely the nature of libido, psychic energy, the motive power of the human psyche, needing to be understood and productively used.

Excellent cinema movies on Freud’s life have been produced and lately over lunch and at times in an afternoon manatee, I am re-watching them with an emerging sense they will fit into what I have been writing and blogging about since taking my first psychology course in 1961 at Fargo Central High School. Here for your viewing pleasure are just a few clips before we see if we can more clearly understand ourselves. I can’t help it, as if in a trance, I am back in my first psych class – yes it feels like Alice falling down down and down. So, let’s go, carefully watching these clips:

1. Listening with our Third Ear.

2. Sigmund Freud: Bilinen Tek Ses Kaydı (1938) | Türkçe Altyazılı

La psychanalyse selon John Huston

BBC: Freud (1984) S01E02 – The Hypnotist

Young Indiana Jones DVDs: Sigmund Freud Scene

The Seven-Per-Cent Solution (1/1) 1976

Jung thought the psyche or soul was to be understood in a much broader and deeper way than Freud and the book A Dangerous Method explores their disagreements. An issue is thinking of the human psyche as an energy machine – the issues of effectiveness and efficiency needs our attention.

A Dangerous Method

 Freud | Official Trailer | Netflix

The Transformation of Libido was the original title of Jung’s book, however, the concept of libido, energy, was removed when the book was re-published. The concept of libido energy remains central in Edinger’s seminar on CG Jung’s now titled Symbols of Transformation. A central issue that divided Freud and Jung was on the “nature of libido – how psychic energy, the motive power of the human psyche, is to be understood”. Edinger points out that “the issue is thinking of the human psyche as an energy mechanism” (Edinger, 1994:3). If we extend Einstein’s equation in physics, E=MC2, into a psychological equation we have E=SD2, where S equals Self and D2 is dialogue squared, which is a dialogue between the conscious and the unconscious. Edinger suggests after addressing kinds of thinking that what is required is “another level of attention, as a dialogue with the unconscious…” (emphasis added). So, our challenge is unpacking SD2 and being able to control the burn. I started this unpacking with these blog posts and will continue exploring the burning processes. I now think to understand burning we need to develop, let’s call it the skill of random accessing memories.

This is further addressed in The Mathematics of Faith? posted on October 27, 2010.

I have written about E = SD2 in The High and The Low posted on December 13, 2015, and I end it with Stan Laurel Infectious Laughing.

Finally, coming into focus, this blog seeks a book. A book is birthing here! Now, is this worth laughing about? Only if on the way to the Bank! E = SD2 is a serious equation, what are its mechanics is the challenge! How do we use our energies to self-actualize?

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Morning Page 10/24/2021

10/24/2021 5:12 AM Morning Page.  I often lay in bed thinking about beginning the day’s Morning Page. When I sense having captured a paragraph, I get up, put the coffee on, beginning the morning. I am remembering my FCHS psychology class, first floor south west corner, where my project was building a table-top wood maze that I could demonstrate classical learning. My demonstration was to train one mouse to run her fastest time with few if any mistakes, then run her untrained brother, recording his much slower and mistaken prone run. I entered UND planning to become a physician but in my sophomore, year switched to majoring in psychology. My intent was to apply psychology to the study of leadership. I had just joined the Sigma Nu Fraternity, thinking here is where I can examine the psychology of leadership. My MBA was about the mechanics of business, however, the DBA degree, while still about business, allowed one to focus – mine was on organizational behavior and theory, with the dissertation titled Cognitive Complexity and Leadership. Fifty years on, still studying the topic of consciousness and effectiveness, can I write anything definitively on this subject? This is the test of a life well lived. I am not dead yet…

I have been re-watching the Freud TV Series a Netflix documentary film on Sigmund Freud this past week, again finding it interesting and motivating. When I was teaching, I would use such movies or parts of them to enhance the concrete learning experience. There are 8 episodes each named after a psycho-illness, the first episode is ‘Hysterie’, the illness of choice in Freud’s Victorian Era Vienna.  There are some rumpy-pumpy sex and sniffy-whiffy cocaine scenes to keep one glued to the monitor. Of course, as a documentary film, some artistic allowances have been allowed. I have searched and have not found such an artistic film on Carl Jung’s life. Of course, we have A Dangerous Method with this dream analysis scene, of both Freud and Jung discussing one of Carl’s dreams. Daughter Annah and I both read this book and watched the movie when she was studying psychology at NDSU. She is now studying for a masters degree in school psychology.

Just now my imaging self sees Steve Scheel Chairman of the Board Scheels in Conversations in Business Ethics sitting in the audience listening to Michael and Steven Scherling presenting The Arvid Scherling Business Ethics conversation. Here is an example helping us imagine us presenting The Arvid R. Scherling conversation: Anthony Daniels (Dalrymple) – Freud: Apostle of Freedom or Apostle of Enslavement? In memory of Sigmund Freud a poem. Steven Arvid Scherling

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Morning Page 10/23/2021

Dream: 10/23/2021I realize that working alone will take 50% longer to accomplish the work than working with a partner.

Associations: I have spent the last several Morning Page entries thinking about work with Michael and Manoj. Our past projects I have been hammering we get done. With other projects like expanding the A.R. Scherling’s NDSU Project and house cleaning, I am feeling stressed. I just remember Alan Watts saying “you need only wash one dish at a time” – okay got it. I sense there is a ‘thread’ to most effectively and efficiently entering into the writing ahead.

Amplification: I am re-reading Giegerich’s Dialectics & Analytical Psychology, reading Aizenstat’s newest book Dream Tending, and Trine’s In tune with the infinite which was written in 1897, where Billiette Scherling has printed her name in the 1947 50th anniversary edition. Monday I expect to receive Giegerich latest book, Working With Dreams: Initiation into the Soul’s Speaking About Itself. My Dreaming Self Project is shifting into overdrive! For starters Aizenstat suggests we “talk about a dream in the present tense. … talk about dreams using verbs ending in ‘-ing’, …remove all articles ‘a,’ ‘an’, and ‘the’), and write the names of the dream characters using capital letters. Here is this dream re-written: I am realizing that working alone is taking 50% longer to accomplish than working with partners.

AnimationDreams are All Around Us, with Stephen Aizenstat – Myth is All Around Us

Finally, I am re-reading Arvid Scherling’s books, Dogma of a Sinful Constitution and Its Practical Bearing and his Scherling-Baily Debate. I have just unboxed and shelved Arvid’s 23 volume collection H.D.M Spence and J.S Exell’s ‘The Pulpit Commentary‘. I am shelving our home’s rooms with books. Here are the AR Scherling Garage Books, far right case top two shelves are The Pulpit Commentary. One book case will be assigned to Fannie’s Teaching Chinese Project. “I am not worrying about tomorrow too much doing!”;

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Morning Page 10/21/2021

10/21/2021 7:05 AM Morning Page

Abstinence Makes The Belly Bigger GADFLY | October 16th, 2021 By Ed Raymond,[].

I did not want to begin this morning page addressed to my UND colleague again. He has not responded to my last emails and do I pick on little brother, who bless his soul, is often not much better. I finally decided to share my MP first with the FCHS Class– let’s see if they can find any energy to react. Here is the issue, I become envious this morning when I read Ed Raymond HPR column, wishing I could write so much as he does. Writing has changed from FCHS English & typing classes. Now we have Internet, Google, Wikipedia access just a click away. I often seek a deeper understanding of words like envious and will hyperlink them, read and study them in order to write a fuller and sexy essay – well, I am not sure about sexy.

Envy (from Latin invidia) is an emotion which occurs when a person lacks another’s superior quality, achievement, or possession and either desires it or wishes that the other lacked it.[1] Aristotle defined envy as pain at the sight of another’s good fortune, stirred by “those who have what we ought to have”.[2] Bertrand Russell said that envy was one of the most potent causes of unhappiness.[3]  Recent research has focused on envy in the workplace, considering the conditions under which it occurs, how people deal with it, and whether it can inspire people to emulate those they envy.[4][5]

In reading this Wiki definition I do not feel that I “wish that Ed lacks his superior quality”. I sense Ed is showing me what I want in myself. Of course, this is an important quality in a good teacher, which Ed is! The research reported in this definition was done in corporations studying “how people deal with envy, and whether it can inspire people to emulate those they envy”. And yes, we do know Kapitalism: Its Nature.

Interesting, this is what Ed’s writing is doing to me right now! The main point is how can Ed’s writing gift help me? Well, I will begin by reading these two references. And as Arnold says, I’ll be back. Wow, I just now experienced what is going on here this morning as synchronistic, []. I am sensing the concept of synchronicity is central to what is coming – I will need to re-examine it as a peak experience. Another look at the concept synchronicity is now needed.

Evans Ogden, Lesley (11 September 2021). “The two sides of envy at work”. Knowable Magazine. doi:10.1146/knowable-091021-2. Retrieved 13 September 2021.

Duffy, Michelle K.; Lee, KiYoung; Adair, Elizabeth A. (21 January 2021). “Workplace Envy”Annual Review of Organizational Psychology and Organizational Behavior8 (1): 19–44. doi:10.1146/annurev-orgpsych-012420-055746. Retrieved 13 September 2021

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The Great Game Afghanistan

Afghanistan: the Great Game (Part I)

Afghanistan the Great Game (Part II)

Art of Geopolitics Part 3: the Great Game

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Arvid Rudolf Scherling Christian Book Collections

I visited with John Halberg curator of NDSU Institute for Regional Studies last week and spent time just paging through the A. R. Scherling Christian Literature Book Collection – this was a peak experience. My grandfather’s NDSU books cannot be check out, can be read there, and several I will be returning to read. I asked about the possibility of creating the A.R. Scherling Speakers Series and was referred up the ladder. So, I attended on Tuesday 10/12 NDSU’s Wold Conversations in Business Ethics at Richard H. Barry Hall. This was the first time I had been in Barry Hall and took time before the conversation to walk through the building, looking through many door windows at students listening to a teacher – each classroom is named for a donor. There are no classrooms named Scherling, which would have required a family donation – I then sensed Arvid and Sophia whispering, quickly turned, seeing no one, I walked up the stairs and into the Richard H. Barry Hall room, to wait for the Conversation to begin.

The Wold speaker was Dr. Siri Terjesen, Professor & Associate Dean for Research and External Relations at FAU Business, who had been speaking in several classes – this appearance was not substantive to what I was expecting. She mentioned only in passing Adam Smith and his Invisible Hand – this was her only academic issue needing a comment and I began to outline it in my notebook as I listened. Here is what I asked Dr. Terjesen: “There is a scene in A Beautiful Mind where John Nash and his fellow colleagues are in a pub talking and a beautiful blond woman is looking at John from across the room. Nash then has an epiphany seeing that Adam Smith needs revision, in that “everyone in the group needs to do what is best for him/herself and also for the group. It’s the only way we all get laid”. Here is the scene from A Beautiful Mind on Adam Smith needing revision.

Siri responded that she was not good at remembering movie scenes but then went on to briefly outline the issue of the individual and the collective. I was not satisfied and thought to then suggest that maybe she needed to add Karl Marx to her list of preferred economists but thought better of this, besides I was sitting in 4th row directly facing her up on the stage with her nylon stockinged crossed legs and became disorientated. I next imagined sitting at the Bisson Turf with John Nash thinking about how we might have gotten laid!

I next discovered NDSU’s Menard Family Distinguished Speakers series located in the Sheila and Robert Challey Institute for Global Innovation and Growth. I walked into Institute’s reception area and picked up a brochure, discovering again no Scherling name. I then sensed Orlando and Billiette’s disappointments – our ancestors were awakening to something amiss – after 100 Years of Scherlings in Fargo, there is no meaningfully significant tribute to our ancestors! There, did you feel that tremor – beware of your dreams in the night!

This bookcase photo is of Arvid’s books, not in the NDSU collection, was just assembled in what is sure to become a Fargo landmark, The A.R. Scherling Garage Christian Book Collection. On top are 6 boxes, 300 books of Orlando’s Scherling Photo Book, which are being given away to each visitor as long as they last, and on lowest shelves are two sections of textbooks on global business. I suggested to brother Michael that there is a system of integration here needing to be realized! The effort to establish The A.R. Schering Lecture Series, would be much easier than expected, an infrastructure at NDSU already exists! The Scherlings just need to write the check! Steven Arvid Scherling

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Kapitalism on the Couch

In past issues of the HPR, I began examining Kapitalism with a learning model presented in The Mathematics of Faith. In the second essay Kapitalism on the Couch, our psychoanalysis of Kapitalism began. The third essay, Kapitalism: Its Nature and Logic presented the structural components of this economic/political system. The fourth essay Modern Times the University Factory looks deeper into Kapitalism’s logic. To continue our psychoanalytical study of Kapitalism, we will use a learning model by examining a personal experience of exploitation and alienation – central components of Kapitalism as it increasingly impacts our universities. The fifth essay Kapitalism’s Concept of the Self addresses how the system impacts the concept of Self as in Self-Actualization. When I am asked to deliver a public lecture, I will use these past essays to build the presentation. The University Factory essay addresses universities’ failure to address Karl Marx’s alienation. These essays are dedicated to my history teacher Bill Barney.

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The Billion Dollar Code

I watched Episode 1 of The Billion Dollar Code [] last night on Netflix at The Billion Dollar Code [], which is reviewed at The Billion Dollar Code, [], with this additional link The Billion Dollar Code []. Interesting, especially since I lived through this time buying my first PC in 1984.

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Hello God!

Hello God!

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