3/12/2022 1:53 AM Morning Page. My dream just now was having an experience with several others, me insisting that the responsibility be evaluated precisely since I felt my contribution had been less than the others. I was working on the mathematical formula for this evaluation. Later, I started watching the Netflix movie The Last Czars, which is a six-part movie that premiered on July 3, 2019. “The series follows the reign of Nicholas II, the last emperor of Russia’s Romanov Dynasty, from his accession to the throne in 1894 to his assassination in 1918.” I have seen this movie before but could not clearly remember it. It is sad to see how weak Nicholas’s personality is – he could have left Russia and lived a comfortable life in England with his wife, four daughters, and son but did not see what was coming. I now remember watching the movie Doctor Zhivago which was “a 1965 historical romance film directed by David Lean with a screenplay by Robert Bolt, set in Russia during World War I and the Russian Civil War. It stars Omar Sharif in the title role as Yuri Zhivago, a married physician and poet whose life is altered by the Russian Revolution and subsequent Civil War, and Julie Christie as his love interest Lara Antipova.” Who was not in love with Julie Christie?
I have been checking in on news from Ukraine as the Russians advance deeper into this country. Nicholas II’s mother lived in Kyiv. What I am now curious about is how does Vladimir Putin’s life over-lap Nickie’s? One overlap I quickly saw is that Putin was born in St Petersburg where Nicholas II lived and his life ended. I am not sure now what I am searching for – seems I seek a synchronistic experience that somehow ties these characters together across time. Like in the movie Somewhere in Time, where “Richard Collier, a playwright who becomes obsessed with a photograph of a young woman at the Grand Hotel on Mackinac Island, Michigan. Through self-hypnosis, he wishes himself back in time to the year 1912 to find love with actress Elise McKenna (portrayed by Seymour) but comes into conflict with Elise’s manager, William Fawcett Robinson (portrayed by Plummer), who fears that romance will derail her career, and resolves to stop him” (Wikipedia).
Well, okay there you have it, Steven, can I now return to bed? Seems a link might be the year 1912. What was happening in Nicholas II life in 1912 and what was happening in Putin’s ancestors’ lives at this time which, may help us understand what is now unfolding? I suppose with self-hypnosis and a time machine we might travel back to 1912 to investigate. I should get the DeLorean ready. Or do I need the Batmobile? I think the Batmobile is needed. Better yet, we use Vladimir’s presidential car the Aurus Senat – looks like the Batmobile!
3/12/2022 3:00 AM Okay, this writing release (not as good and a good fuck) should now allow me some sleep. I must begin spending more energy on BC Project. I am working to get this work published – hoping that it will be a best seller – All I have to do is Dream…
I did think that the way these dreams, readings, and journaling are flowing together – is the story. I begin the story by explaining my experience with the Intensive journal method. “The intensive journal method is a psychotherapeutic technique largely developed in 1966 at Drew University and popularized by Ira Progoff (1921–1998). It consists of a series of writing exercises using loose-leaf notebook paper in a simple ring binder, divided into sections to help in accessing various areas of the writer’s life. These include a dialogue section for the personification of things, a “depth dimension” to aid in accessing the subconscious and other places for recording remembrances and meditations” (Wikipedia). There, this is what I thought about lying in bed reflecting on the dream that got me out of my warm bed and started his ‘morning page”. I am going back to bed now, snuggle close to Fannie, and dream on… This is what I have been doing now for years – now it is time to edit my journals. “Yes, and write your book, Steven.” I’ll be back.